The I AM thread. (The 4-day rule applies!)

[Tangential]

I am ...

- Unable to bring back the warmth; a coat of red not your own. It's a constant battle to fight back this rain from weeping over this chilling chamber.

- over this idiocy. Same story, different stupid girl. I'd rather drown my ears than listen to this crap.

- Excited to finally start this exotic adventure with those so close to my heart. It is exhilarating to be so bluntly immersed in such novel, rich culture and resources.

- ... restraining from shaking heads off people. No head, no more talking.

[curious]

I am:

Alive..! In a big town it seems and just doing stuff as I come across it.
Alive..!! In a fucking dump of a place. Help..!!
Alive..!! In a [not sure] town. Sure, there are people here, but what do they do..?
Alive..!! In a cute town. I like it, but I might freeze to death.

[ObsessedWithCats]

I am...

... sad but unsurprised by her continued sleeping. Afraid but determined to return, if just for a short visit.
... probably less than two years from home, afraid of how much could have changed just in the years I've already been gone.
... still waiting, losing hope and wondering what I'm doing with my life.
... trying to keep things from blowing up with this new guy, hoping the nightmares will stop now I'm home.

[*Wiro]

1. Filled with fear at every step, only to be relieved when the tide changes once again.
2. Overwhelmed at times, though lacking in time to slow down. A snowball rolling endlessly, amassing infinite amounts of weight.
3. Longing for adventure, though the people are kind and there's joy and laughter aplenty this is not the life I envisioned for myself. Luckily it we will be moving on shortly.

[Poldora]

I am:

- grieving badly
- sitting in his car, waiting
- feeling like some time inside
- wondering how lonely life can get, if things can get worse
- finishing up this meat, then heading out
- wondering what's going on
- working still, pretty sure i've earned a tandem by now
- wondering if he'll accept another person, and whether I can help this place
- happy, waiting for a trade
- wanting one to wake up, I feel like I can't stay here much longer
- enjoying the two of them
- waiting to get some more food things
- enjoying how quiet it can be
- losing myself in the noisy crowd of people


IRL - waiting for my 29 day block to be over

[Alladinsane]

Dead
Dead
Dead
Dead
Thinking about being a delivery boy
Chopping wood and seeing a new side of her.
Nearing the end of a long journey
Picking and wondering
Still digging. This is not what I am best at.
Thinking of taking a long long journey. Thats alot of... something.
Almost ready to experiment in several ways.
Watching it grow. Wow, what a beauty!
Things are looking up.

[Mitch79]

I am....

-Spending some quality time with him in the midst of dealing with greif.
- Anxious to find a new home and settle down again. Will I know anyone when I return "home".
- Dealing with problem after problem and now a death on top of it. When will it all stop.
- Happy in my life for once. Everything is just perfect.
- Havin' a party! Let's have some fun!
- Not as asleep as I seem to be, but lost in my thoughts and trying to figure out what I want in my life.
- Breaking locks and wondering what I'll find on the other side. Almost time to continues my plans. Look out ladies.
- Sailing with a sleepy group and admiring him from afar. Shame that new fellow didn't kill HER.
- not sure what is going to happen with us and not sure I feel like bothering anymore.

[Genie]

I am seeking my way out of this, but in the other hand I want my revenge too.
I am deeply worried about her, I just hope a miracle happens.
I am slowly calming down and settling with my new life.
I am happy for I have reached an island .
I am wondering why he is being so, unfortunately I am too sleepy to ask.
I am being cared by a loved company.
I am planning to live in another city after finishing several works.
I am bored to death , this place is my prison.
I am spawned and sleeping until I find my way.
I am very committed and dedicated.
I am surprised by seeing how fake some people can be.
I am in mourning silently. Nothing to do.

[miirkaelisaar]

I was gonna post an entry I typed up almost a month ago and didn't get around to it, so I'm going to post that one, and then a more recent one, because for some of my characters things have changed drastically within that time. So yeah these are all older than four days, but within about a year to two years of each other.

THEN:
I am...
...less worried now, hoping soon we'll be more ready, though I wish the animals would go along with our plans...
...meeting other English like me, but they seem nicer than the ones I knew, I shouldn't be nervous, really.
...dashing, as ever *winks*
...a bit on the sleepy side, and I know I shouldn't be..
...feeling like I ruined everything, but it's not my fault that voice is like a knife in my heart.. and she should understand, why doesn't she?
...glad to see a place that's active, wish I wasn't so tired though..
...happy to be home! And happy to be with him, he makes me happy. Confused.. really confused... but happy.
...sad because of all the death, but I sure do have nice friends around to cheer me up.
...wondering when I'll wake up to find this is only a dream, if it is, I hope I stay asleep forever, because I can't bear that again.
...happy to have so many friendly people in our quiet town, and so talkative! It's wonderful.
...so close to home, and so excited to be back!
...sleepy, but happy, we might go on a little trip together soon, I can't wait! He's the greatest.
...Pretty interested to see this new place, wonder what to do after I get there though.

NOW:
...working silently but quickly, slowly making this town worthless for when the "vultures" swoop in to gobble it up...
...too sleepy.. but trying to do some trade, which is new to me.
...in shock. Utter, cold, crushing shock.
...trying to shake the sleep, as usual...
...scared, confused, hurt, everything except completely alone, and it's only a matter of time... slowly but surely they're all leaving and soon I'll be alone and helpless and I'll die too...
...kind of annoyed at this sleepiness, actually...
...wishing my friends wouldn't sleep so much, and especially him, I miss him a lot.
...going to miss them, but I'm third wheel anyway and it's really starting to show, I'll be glad to get home anyway.
...never going to forgive myself for being so stupid and gullible, it was always a sick game to him, to see how many times he can abandon me and break my heart.. how many times he can tell me how much he loves me, but that I'm only second-place for that love. He should have just killed me, because I don't even have the strength to end my own life now... he killed what was left of my trust... never again...
...saddened that he won't allow me to save him.. but if peace is what I can offer, I offer it freely...
...glad to be home but I wish it wasn't so quiet, we even brought more people back with us to have more friends and they're so quiet, it's not fair.
...happier than I've ever been, even though he's a bit sleepy, I'm excited for when he wakes up and we can talk, he makes me so happy!
...wishing I was a better hunter, damn it...

[Snowdrop]

I am... hoping we'll be back home for my spawnday...hoping there will be a party!

I am... trying to understand my feelings for her. Not sure if I will, but I miss her when we're apart.

I am... back inside again, with lots more work set up.

I am... so relieved I had enough fuel to get back.

I am... not liking how quiet it is here without visitors, or him...I hope he gets back soon.

I am... a terrible friend. I should have checked on her sooner...I shouldn't have argued with her...I should have just done what she asked. We shouldn't have lost her. It's all my fault.

I am... becoming quite the elephant slayer.

I am... bored.

[hyrle]

I am...
* So glad to be home, but sad the my friend died.
* Sad that our leader passed, but the transition to a new leader has been pretty seamless.
* Finishing a large trade, and cooking ass..paragus. *giggle*
* Trying to help this town recover from a terrible tragedy. Hopefully we can help them get on track.
* Hoping she will wake up. I miss her beautiful smiles and her soft kisses.
* So excited to be getting married soon!
* So happy to be home, even if it's quiet.
* C-c-cold, but there's some wonderful cuddling to be had.
* So amazed at being in love with her.
* Making love for the first time with an amazing woman. Do I give up my dreams to be with her?
* Shocked that she just killed herself in front of the whole town. I hope we can pick up the pieces.
* Getting a massive case of the munchies.
* Saddened by the loss of my lover.
* Taking apart some stuff to get easy loot.
* In shock - his heart was so broken that it stopped. Now who is going to marry me and her?

[Finchington]

I am...

... Stressed out. Hurt. Annoyed. But I can't do anything about it, because they're counting on me.
... Broken. At a loss as to what I should do now. At least I've got him.
... Hunting pirates!
... So glad I'm home, and with him. Desperately looking forward to the future. Or... Our future now!
... Heartbroken and dying. She tore me to shreds.
... Quite content with all this working. Perhaps I should make a car?
... Falling for him, but I've not got a chance in the world.
... Crushed. I miss him too much - We all do.

[curious]

I am:
Alive..! In a big town it seems and just doing stuff as I come across it.
Alive..!! In a fucking dump of a place. Help..!!
Alive..!! In a [not sure] town. Sure, there are people here, but what do they do..?
Alive..!! In a cute town. I like it, but I might freeze to death.

Now... I am:
Still alive... bored..! Is this it..?
Still alive... here's a plan... I just wish it was moving along faster.
Still alive... pottering at some kind of a role anyway. I can see frustrations building though so, getting the shit and the fan ready.
Still alive... fucking cold..!

[NancyLee]

I am...

...a burden.
...wishing you were here.
...hating this.
...benighted.
...cloistered.

[Mee]

- Still broken inside, how can that be after all those years.. I do like my new career though
- Alone but happy travellin.
- Happy we're growing, and he's still perfect.
- Sleepworking
- Unhappy about everything in this damn town. Why can't I just leave?
- Newly wed and so crazy in love with him! how life can change so quickly.
- Sailing towards our death.
- Doubting he's what I need.
- People in this town are amazing! I love it here and in all my strangeness I fit right in.
- Working towards something big, we do keep busy.
- Contemplating my future..
- He needs me to be like this.. and he knows I would do anything for him.