The I AM thread. (The 4-day rule applies!)

[curious]

I am...

...sick of being the 'active' leader. F**k them, if they want to sleep... let them. *shrugs* Maybe I'll forget to fill the barrel.
...making progress in our new home. Life looks a little tough though.
...travelling, and listening to all this commotion on the radio?
...enjoying the quiet life... what a great pot!
...laying out these logs... waiting... laying out this iron... waiting... *sighs*
...settling into my new home, but something's nagging at me... this is not what I came here for... hoping
...watching them plod about, with a smile, some notes and a pot of paste.
...making a mess!

[BeepBeep]

- wondering how he dares to be so self righteous
- numb
- rising to the challenge...again
- numb
- wondering if she sees....or...even cares...
- still just so very happy
- bored, bored, bored
- having a blast!
- alive and satisfied
- wonder what they are talking about
- farming again...not a bad thing

[Faith]

I Am...

…feeling something that I never think I could feel. And still surprising how every moment that we spend together, makes the feeling bigger.

...hoping to find some “good blood” on this new place.

...travelling. I must not fear, They are observing me...I'll hold the pain.

...missing the ship and the guys.

...at least, travelling a bit faster, knowing new places. No more mud!

...trying to back to normal after all this drama. I love her more every day, and she's an amaizing woman.

...lost, walking. I’m late; now I need to find the way to let it pass before It makes me crazy.

...surprised, the things have changed a lot here, but she makes me feel in home again, like if the years hadn’t passed.

...working, with too much things to do...too much things!!!

...sleeping...BUT WITH MY EYES OPEN!

...dreaming with an excursion on that ship, but worried about my friend, where is she? Wait...Maybe one of those “path animals” has kidnapped her!

...returning to home with honour...I don't know If I'm going to see her again, but I'll never forget these days.

...learning about the people, trying to understand them...”trying”

...thinking that the name of the ship, couldn’t be better.

...worried about losing my head...literally!

[Xander]

I am...

* Gathering so much of this exotic food that I had never heard of before we managed to finally reach this distant island.
* Alone with him, my lover, and wishing that I had met him much earlier than I did.
* I fed her for so many years, and now my devotion has paid off!
* Peaceful, enjoying the tranquillity of our little bread basket town.
* Travelling. Escaping. Upset. Looking for a new life and a new town, maybe even a new identity. I hate that it happened again.
* Bored, and she is not being as loyal as she used to be.
* Sailing away from my spawntown, off to our new home. I will follow our new leader as I followed the old leader.
* In love, and alone with the one I love. I could stay in here forever with him, and I know we belong together.
* Not much, and wondering whether to just run for it. It would upset my friend, but this life is too boring and too repetitive.
* Thinking of exploring another nearby town, and maybe not returning to my spawntown, but carrying on away.
* Alone, making clothes and wondering how the new leader will be.
* Wondering what lies beyond my spawntown, having never left it, but I don't ever want to leave.
* Deeply in love, whilst travelling on our boat. We'll settle down one day, and I don't know if I want that day to be soon or far away.
* Working in the mountains, free from former abusers, worrying about a friend I knew briefly in dramatic times.
* Travelling with no destination in mind, I am just exploring.

* In another town on the same island, finding an old friend dead and making a new friend.
* It seems this whole situation is going to come to a head soon.
* Damn pirate attacked me, but thankfully my friends were there quickly.
* Doing some repairs to my large collection of tools and weapons.
* Being held captive, although I deserve it.
* Starving, and not sure whether to ask for food or die before I reach the age of 39. It's not been a great life.
* Our group is somewhat at a standstill at the moment, but I am sure we will return to our journey soon.
* Concerned that he hasn't woken up for a while, but then again not concerned enough to feed him.
* So dull and repetitive, I wish something would happen.
* After all that hard work, I'm in a new town and waiting to help build something.
* Something is happening here, and I think things are about to get a whole lot bloodier.
* This is a strange experience, but I'm enjoying it so far.
* Still deeply in love, gathering a resource and meeting new friends as we explore.
* Deeply in love, and life has become good for once.
* Dead, and I still don't know why they killed me. It was a bit over the top.

[Indigo]

I am...

... quite happy. The dark voices are still shut off. Looking forward the biggest drunkness ever... and thinking about other uses for that load of beer.
... my personal crisis is still here, but at least I'm not alone in this now. A bit worried about the state of things, politically talking, and experiencing a growing feeling of doing something about it.
... sailing alone, again. My friends never came, and that especial friend decided to put distance between us, for some reason that escapes my understanding. Bitter memories, dark thoughts and loneliness... dangerous blend.
... dying.
... my heart is giving up. After all these years, it hasn't healed from that loss. Thinking about going back home for when the unavoidable happens. Hopeless.
... dead.
... wishing he would understand, defeated because he doesn't. This is not about my past coming back. This is about ghosts trying to take over a present that seems to be frozen in the wait for a future, and me fighting against that. If he just realized that truth, and how much I love him...
... trying to wake up, but afraid of doing so. My thirstiness is becoming unbearable.
... worried about my sister, and with a strange feeling regarding him. Switching between highs and lows too quickly.
... realizing, day by day, how dead inside I am. I need something to focus, but this trip seems endless, there's nothing to do here, and when something happens, I just sleep through it.
... asleep. With no wish to die, but no wish to live either.
... a step closer to the clothes, and the ship, and a dream that I didn't even know that I had. Excited, so excited.

[caged_bird_sings]

I am...
...being hit with wasters as I sleep. I don't appreciate it.
...sleeping away.
...still waiting to go on a little trip.
...waiting for him to wake up, and hoping the dogs don't kill him before he does. He's too big to drag.
...chopping wood, and tired of it too.
...hiding out in case I was followed, and working on a room. He must be dead by now...
...making another piece of my new outfit. Even though it's a good distraction, I can't kick the feelings of abandonment. I've accepted it; they'll never come back.
...almost finished a new room in this building. It's lonely, but I like the silence and don't really want to talk to anyone at the moment anyway.
...laughing my ass off. Oops!
...on a boat, sailing to an island I've never heard of.
...so mad at this stupid cart. Can it possibly move any slower? I'll starve before I find civilization.
...about to spawn
...about to spawn
...about to spawn

[IvanicDiazinum]

I am...

...sitting alone, quietly staring at the wall, still stuck in this stupid spanish hotel. Wondering if she is really in the next room like they say she is, and if not, if she still cares if I'm alive or dead. And questioning, did I do the right thing for this chance at freedom? Anything to see her again.
...engaged! And soon to be settling the suburbs.
...fallen silent, not sleepy, but they don't know the difference. Donii guide my soul through these dark days.
...waiting. I have my weapon, though weak it may be. But now there's a girl. Revenge shouldn't be this complicated.
...flourishing again; surrounded by loving, sympathetic crewmates as we prepare to embark on the journey of a lifetime. And revolution awaits this island, I know it.
...a pirate but not really a pirate. Rich, and no one knows it. And I've invented gambling in our corner of the world.
...sabotaging the airwaves. And well on my way to building this raker that someone left unfinished. What luck I've had so young in life!
...lonely, in the most deserted forest in the world, but it's magical and I'll never starve here.

[Snickie]

I am...

...sitting alone, quietly staring at the wall, still stuck in this stupid spanish hotel. Wondering if she is really in the next room like they say she is, and if not, if she still cares if I'm alive or dead. And questioning, did I do the right thing for this chance at freedom? Anything to see her again.

He's still alive? Or are you speaking of some other character?

[IvanicDiazinum]

I am...

...sitting alone, quietly staring at the wall, still stuck in this stupid spanish hotel. Wondering if she is really in the next room like they say she is, and if not, if she still cares if I'm alive or dead. And questioning, did I do the right thing for this chance at freedom? Anything to see her again.

He's still alive? Or are you speaking of some other character?

I don't have a habit of getting locked up by spaniards, it's the same.

[Mitch79]

I am...
preparing.
visiting our old home and seeing old friends.
learning we're all better off without him, but still feeling alone despite the others here.
sailing to a new island with the best family a girl could have.
earning our vehicle. It's taking a while but will be worth it.
sleeping mostly. This whole town seems to sleep
irritated. If that woman hisses at me once more.....
figuring out I"m in love and didn't realize it, but now how to break it to other one.
in a new home, with a new life and learning how to live again.
still thinking of him, why do I still have the nightmares...
wishing he'd tell me more. I'm not giving up, Caring more than I probably should.
confused. Do something I think is right and apparently its wrong. Should I stay or go?
off on a trade trip with the most irritating man in the world. Damn it, I love him.
sad, he's sleeping and not waking up. Missing his company. I guess I'll get some work done.
walking, walking and more walking.

[BeepBeep]

I am....

- nervously exercising carpe diem because I don't want to live to regret the alternative
- finally allowing myself to feel emotions, but still not sure which ones are best
- regretting this stupid choice and this stupid existence; seriously, why can I never get a break
- amazed that she finally spoke to me...nicely even...
- increasingly dissatisfied with the new hired help
- carefully planning the future
- wondering if some of these people are ever actually happy
- enjoying increased knowledge, experience and responsibility as my determination and hard work pay off
- still bored, but satisfied to be finished with my main short term personal goal
- wondering where this is all going
- alive, not happy, not bored, wishing for a way off of this island

[Chroma Key]

10 days later...

I am:

snapping out of it, more awake and enjoying life a bit more. Almost there.
growing quieter, very unlike myself; desperately lonely but my home is where he is - even if he can't stand the sight of me. Withered.
on the road, with my sleepy son, on my way to visit someone special. Content.
confused about my feelings for him once again. Focusing on getting us back home. Determined.
craving for blood. My finger's on the trigger, twitching. Impatient.
having a feast with my fiancee, cut off from the outside world, without a care, enjoying the mead, and him. Happy.
madly in love, and simply mad at times, and missing him even when he's right next to me. Ecstatic.
thrilled by how pretty she is, and how much she pleases me. Having lots of fun.
finding a new goal - all these herbs are terrific! Preparing for the medicine production. Organised.
exploring new lands on my jeep, and what a piece of luck to find that bike with a lot of stuff inside! Excited.
sailcloth, more sailcloth, and then some more. Bleh.
Finally sorting out this trade, grateful for his patience, yet unable to help the bout of depression and sleepiness after so much loss. Sad.
gonna get that nickel and build that damn thing. Just wait. Focused.

[Majix]

- trying to avoid the wild and evil animals while I work, work, work
- things are sorted out and I think he looks at me now and then
- resting in a very nice and talkative town
- wishing he would either wake up or die, he has the keys and we are running out of resources
- healthy at last! Haven't seen or spoken to another human being for five years now. Travelling without a map

[Wolfsong]

I am...

...tired of making no progress with these damn locks.
...waiting for her to wake up.
...leaving this silent town for more empty seas.
...bored.
...sleeping.
...sleeping.
...stricken by puppy love yet again, but this 'puppy' has teeth.
...tired.
...aggravated at being told how to run things by random people.
...very, very distracted and utterly in love.
...sleeping.

[Alladinsane]

- Seeing wealth in the future. She has a silver tongue.
-Seeing some cracks in the top of the tower. Some are running before it topples
-Found a new friend and that thief can kiss our collective butts. Nothing we can do though.
-Really needing some alone time with her. Getting a little grumpy.
-Planning a trip with her. One day and one step at a time.
-Just filling this thing with wood. *shrugs*
-Traveling to destiny. Was the last time, the last time? running out of it.
-Just filling this thing with wood.
-There was no way out, I had to get a broken heart and I had to break one of their hearts. Path chosen, no U-turns allowed.