Thought or Rant of the day!!!

[Comy]

Boyfriend's mom had a stroke. I don't know what to say to him and I most likely won't even see him for another two months.

I'm so sorry. What is her name? I'll keep her in my prayers.

This is going to sound bad because we've been together for almost five years and living together for three...but I actually don't know (I thought I did, but then my friend questioned me and now I'm not sure). She loathed me with a fiery burning passion without having met me, so the boyfriend and I decided it was probably best that I just stay away from her.

[*Wiro]

I just got really close to clicking the X. Closer than ever.

[Sabsi]

Why?

[Arenti]

Yes why?

[Dudel]

Because once you realize what "Cantr is" you don't wanna play (anymore). However, we talk ourselves out of it for one reason or another.

Cantr quickly becomes an obligation at points in time. Personally, I do nothing out of obligation... which is why sometimes my characters stay "quiet for a bit". When the "world" of Cantr becomes tedious, I'm done for that day.

Keeps me from quitting this and MANY MANY other things.

[Genie]

Same thing happened to me this weekend but i didn't I know i will miss if i do.

[joo]

I know I'll end up coming back... Cantr is too unique to leave behind forever. So I keep what interesting characters I care to play alive...

[*Wiro]

Why?

1.Cantr is, as has been said, too much of a chore.
2.I get too much sucked into it and I don't want that. I barely have a life, I need to get one and fast before I kill myself of sobbing about how I don't have a life.

But...

1.My Cantr characters haven't been as much fun as they are now in such a long while.
2.A lot of my characters have big plans.

So...I'll try to not play as much. And at the same time I'll also play more wildly. As in, not so "OMG IF I DON'T DO THIS MY CHAR MIGHT DIE" but instead "HEHE IMA DO THIS AND IF IT WORKS, YAY, IF IT DOESN'T OH WELL."

q-q I'll keep the characters you know alive though, Sabsi, those are two of my three favorites. And Arenti, I'll keep the one you roleplayed a lot with alive as well, because that one's old and still has lots of open paths to walk. And also the one you didn't roleplay as much with since that's my other char in my top 3.

I hope I'll be able to resist clicking.

[Piscator]

I think you would regret it. And if not, we would make you.

[*Wiro]

I know I will. But it's for the best anyway. And I wonder. Is it possible to have a midlife crisis when you're 15? 'Cause that's exactly what I think is wrong with me. I feel old. I wanna be 13. Or 12. But not 15. Waaaah. I hate growing up.

[Piscator]

Ah, don't worry. That feeling passes. Soon you will see the new possibilities lying in front of you. And don't start about feeling old. I can actually have a sensible conversation with people a whole decade younger than me. That's old.

[*Wiro]

I might soon, but it isn't getting any closer. I've been feeling mostly terrible since last...december. So it's hard not to give up if it just doesn't get any closer. Things don't get better. And a lot of people say I should look for help -- help which is actually right in front of me, I just gotta say the word...but I don't. Because I can't be helped in something that I gotta do all by myself.

The whole "midlife crisis" thing and the having no life thing are just a few of the reasons I've been considering to quit Cantr, but there's so many others. It's hard when there's only a few that are actually positive.

Arghh. I feel frustrated. And annoyed. And sad. And empty. And bored. I really, really need a change.

[Genie]

I know I will. But it's for the best anyway. And I wonder. Is it possible to have a midlife crisis when you're 15? 'Cause that's exactly what I think is wrong with me. I feel old. I wanna be 13. Or 12. But not 15. Waaaah. I hate growing up.

My my so this old lady must suicide herself cause she is still a kid inside

[*Wiro]

I know I will. But it's for the best anyway. And I wonder. Is it possible to have a midlife crisis when you're 15? 'Cause that's exactly what I think is wrong with me. I feel old. I wanna be 13. Or 12. But not 15. Waaaah. I hate growing up.

My my so this old lady must suicide herself cause she is still a kid inside

LADY? o_o I'm sorry but when did this sex change occur? O: or is it like, drama queen lady what you're trying to say? Cause I guess I am overdramaticizing it. *shrug*

[chase02]

Wiro, despite what everyone says, if you need to - take a break for a few months. I did, and I feel much better for it now (and much less attached at the moment, with my one character). It'll leave you feeling quite free for having the strength to hit that X. Sort yourself out, cantr will always be here but your delightful teenage years won't.