Thought or Rant of the day!!!

[Zanthos]

I <3 my cellphone, and pretty much couldnt go without it. but then again, im the kind of driver who'll go 95 down the highway in the left lane, except if your going slow there, in which case ill ease up until im ~1-3 carlength behind you and match your speed, drifting to the right side of the lane to either pass, or tell them to move over because they're in my way.

but yeah cellphones. My dad has a plan for his business so we get upgrades every two years, and i've had one since i was 13, making this my 4th phone. It's a gold samsung Glam, and its pretty much the best lookin phone out there right now IMO. It can also take a beating, which is good because i've already thrown it into a bench before at a speed which would have shattered my old phone.

[Voltenion]

Rant: When will I know what 'IMO' means?

[SekoETC]

"In my opinion". And Finland being the promised land of cellphones, they got rid of almost all the phone booths. And even before that the phones required a card instead of coins (I guess because the coin containers could be broken into if the booth was in some unguarded spot).

[Voltenion]

Thank you...and...Go Nokia! \o

(Portugal is the promised land of selling cellphones even 7 year old kids have cellphones. And they make their parents spent money on their cell's and never use them )

[Money]

We Canucks have places where cell phones cant even work...

*goes and hides in a lonely corner with his non-working cellphone despretly trying to text*

[DylPickle]

We Canucks have places where cell phones cant even work...

*goes and hides in a lonely corner with his non-working cellphone despretly trying to text*

Mine works just great up here in the tundra! But it's inactive most of the time thanks to the damn costs.

*grumbles at service charges and stabs at Bell voodoo doll*

[J. Scott]

Has anyone thanked the character(s) responsible for the Heaven's Bikes?

I have a character that is very indebted to that visionary.

[SekoETC]

One of my characters helped to make two or three of them. Earned iron and steel to make a darter to go sniping at Stone Knights. Too bad it didn't work (no one died).

[Chris]

It's baaaaaack! Yesterday we had more/longer than usual periods of server downtime, and now it seems that we have more lag too. Arrrgh!

[SekoETC]

I'm just wondering if I caused it somehow, because I was updating a lot of pages in the wiki and then the server crashed. I read from the home site of MediaWiki that their program is meant for big servers. Maybe ours isn't efficient enough.

[the_antisocial_hermit]

A-holes that think they can be chummy after putting you through shit. I might be willing to tolerate someone that's been an a-hole as long as they behave, but that doesn't mean I am their friend or even have a desire to be their friend. If you're not my friend, don't act like you can make inappropriate statements as a "joke" and expect me to look kindly on it and laugh. F*** yourself with a dynamite stick.

Higher ups that can't take action or let people be in the position to take action and tend to let said a-holes have chance after chance after chance after chance after m-effing chance. It's 3 strikes, "You're out!" not 50 bazillion strikes, "You're still in!"

There's a reason everyone is so damn apathetic.

F*** it.

[Cherize]

*screams as loud as she can*

FIX IT

I feel better now, thank you.

[SekoETC]

Barely anything happens in Cantr, except some of my characters getting hungry, sometimes I let them hang for days since I know that it's not dangerous until the 20th day hits.

I've got one who cannot pick up food when they want, because there isn't any. They are stuck sailing and I don't know where they are. I can see the shore but I can't know if I will find a town before time runs out, and even if I did, it might be an empty swamp, of which there are plenty. I could build a firepit if I find land but I don't remember if I have any meat left. Probably not. I've got healing foods but of course I can't eat them. So I guess in four days I'll be dead. I already opened the lock on the boat so that if someone finds it, they will get it with no trouble. But I have this feeling that the world is rather dead, that no one will ever come.

(Edit: This character actually made it, docked to a swamp and found a rabbit and pelican there, killed them in two days, made a firepit in the meantime and grilled the meat. There was potatoes in the next location.)

Also I have another character who is lost at sea, despite having a map but just maybe that map had north up instead of west, that might explain how come I haven't seen anything. I've got several kilos of potatoes left but there is a chance that I'll never find land.

It's no life going alone, anyway. It's just an extension of the player wanting to explore the world, although it stops mattering once you realize that there's only so many resources and you can't do anything with most of them. At least not if you don't have much equipment.

Cantr is just a simulation and simulations are always limited compared to real life. Limited. In text-based games the pleasure comes from reading descriptions and names. In Cantr you eat something and it's only grams, it's only the name, which is forced to be short. Usually only one word. At least in KoL each food has a special message when you eat it. And each item has a description. Each time I find a new item, I read the description if I don't know what it is. But in Cantr we stuff the essential information in the name, and there are no descriptions. Also there's very little room for individualisation. There's only signs and landmarks. Actually I have a couple of characters that have developed an interest towards labeling buildings because this is communicating with others. People may ignore notes but it's harder to ignore a short text under a building name, especially when it's in a bright color.

On another topic, I would like to expand the clothing selection in Cantr but the game being unplayable makes me feel that it doesn't matter because no one would get to make them anyway. Also I fail to get feedback so I just feel like if I add something, there's going to be complaints after things have been implemented and when it's harder to change things. Yeah it was mentioned just lately that staff shit shouldn't be spilled in public, but I feel that no one reads the staff forums anyway, and there are these negative vibes that I don't even want to go there.

I can't blame the hormones anymore, I just feel generally bad. Actually I think I'm just about to start crying because I got this bottled up anxiety and I feel very alone.

Oh and I don't have the energy to take a shower or do the dishes or book the laundry machine... I think I ran out of clean underwear, which no one probably wants to hear but I think that underlines the state of lethargy that I'm experiencing.

I eat a lot of chips but nowadays it makes me think of vomit. A couple of times I've puked on purpose after eating chips because eating greasy stuff makes me feel bad. Physically bad, I don't care about gaining weight. Last time I went to the scale I was surprised because I haven't been this light in years. If it goes any lower then it will start to be alarming. In fact I am a bit alarmed already. But my shrink doesn't think I have an eating disorder, then again she didn't know how thin I was because I wear baggy clothes. We went clothes shopping last Thursday and she was honestly surprised. She said I should show my body... but I feel like hiding. I sit here in my cave and I feel awful. So yeah, I suppose someone will soon come to say that I shouldn't post things like this in public, but I need to vent.

[Cherize]

You wear underwear? You learn something new everyday.

Now get the fuck out of your room and go do something fun. That's an order.

[SekoETC]

Can't, last night I realized I have a math exam TOMORROW MORNING! So I guess I should be studying.

Actually I feel better now. I feel energetic. Yesterday I even did laundry. But still can't make myself do the dishes.