Postby Sunni Daez » Mon Dec 25, 2006 4:00 am
Thanks Agar! well my thoughts today....
Being today is Christmas eve, and I am here, alone, in the beatuiful state of Hawaii... thoughts overwhelmed me for awhile... as a very very dear friend told me... it is just a day.... I know that it is... and though I feel better now...sort of... this is what happened..
I went to a very secluded beach type area... not a swimming beach, it is all lava rock and such... I parked up under the trees and walked down to the beachfront.... I got as close to the water as I could. The sound of the ocean is almost deafening ... As I stood there, the tide was coming in... the waves...as they rose... you can see the crrystal blue of the water, just before they spill over onto themselves...resulting in a brilliant white foam contrasting against the deep blue of the sea, and the cold grey of the sky... Each swell as it rose, rushing to the shore seemed to become bigger, more feirce as it approached.. soon the watter was reaching my feet... It was then I thought to myself... how insignificant my life could be... how that water could wrap itself around me, engulf my life and take it away... Standing there, contiplating my place in the world, I noticed, in in the darkened sky behind the swells... a faded patch of color... within moments, the color emerged and the sky was painted in awesome bands of hope... I realised.... no matter how harsh, how fierce the waves of life come at you... there is hope, and it can only consume you, if you let it... I took a few steps back... the water tried to reach my feet, but I was always just beyond it's reach
My life has been blessed with many things. I was literally given second and third chances at life..(for those who know my story, you know what I mean) I have a family that loves me.. no matter how far away they are... Here, in this virtual world... I have bonded with people.. that has brought to me real friends, those I have actually been able to hug, those that can only be virtual hugs...those that have helped me to understand the joy when my days are sad...(you know who you are) all different....but cherrished just the same... It has given me an indescibable love in my heart for one in particular... An adventure I still experience.. a treasure I will cherrish forever, no matter what the future holds...
At the end of my stay at the waterfront.. I walked away, knowing, although I culd be swept away by the sea.. If I look close enough... the bright colors of life will show themselves and lead my life to a happier plane.... (yea yea... type-o's bad spelling, but you get my drift)

Run...Dragon...Run!!!