Postby miirkaelisaar » Tue Mar 17, 2015 2:09 am
I'm really sorry about Pebbles, for whatever reason she had to die, Alice did love her and had kind of thought that argument had slipped her mind and her wanting to travel with her and overcome her fear would make Pebbles happy again =( sadly, Alice can't move on from this, I don't know if I'm going to let her go, it's very very hard for me to kill a character but she literally has nothing left.. plus she did promise not to leave Pebbles, and she is certain that it's all her fault, and that the note and bringing up their past argument is what killed her. There's no one else for her to live for and the town is dying. Also.. not to be rude but I really really wish I'd had a bit more warning, because crying in public was not fun for me personally no matter how well RPed the death scene was, and had I known what was happening - which I guess I really should have but of all people I didn't expect Pebbles to die and she'd already been sick a hundred times - I could have sought some privacy... and I wish their life could have had that much interaction, it was so quiet and Pebbles rarely spoke to Alice in the last years, and then when I finally thought we would have some RP and some traveling, it's all over and I'm not sure I understand, but it seems to always happen that way...
This is part of the reason Alice didn't want to be with Pebbles initially, as I'm sure you see now, she knew she wasn't relationship material because of Kirby and Christian (Pebbles might have thought they looked in love but Alice had to basically beat Christian off most of the time, it was not fun or a nice relationship and Kirby and Christian treated her in pretty humiliating ways sometimes regardless of her feelings, though she did love them, they made her feel bad about herself), she knew her being leader would always be in the way of the duties of a lover like her being unable to leave town, but Pebbles pushed and Alice thought she would die if she kept rejecting her and out of guilt she conceded, but this only further proves her fears of being a terrible lover and friend, as far as she knows when Pebbles read that note it broke her heart and killed her.
If I don't muster up the courage to let Alice die, I'm not sure what she'll do really, probably just quiet working like normal.. but I know she'll never be the same again. Pebbles was the only person who truly loved her, unconditionally, not like Kirby and Christian who always wanted sex and fell asleep (or even got angry sometimes in Christian's case) if they didn't get it, she respected Alice and made her feel safe, she was supportive and she was an actual partner, and she'll be missed...
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