Thinking about quitting.....

[Mr. Bones]

I quit once too, after 3 years of playing, took about a 9 month break. I was having to deal with more in game than I wanted too. You have to find your balance is all. Less characters with fewer responsibilities will usually do the trick.

[Henkie]

Day 1 of journal. Saturday April 12th
Cantr has me bored. Since no one is online I got bored and went out to ride my (recently purchased) motor. That cheered me up and after getting home I didn't check cantr at all. It appears the green in nature is more attractive to me than the green on the computer. I wonder where this emotion will lead.

Day 2 of journal. Sunday April 13th
Was out late last night forgetting about cantr, and today is a busy day. I scheduled a meet with Vega who had decided to come take care of a little girl about 30 minutes drive from me. After that I will be off to my grandmother's 88th birthday. My how we all love her, she's always so fun and it's always a pleasure to go to her, even at 88 she's one of the friendliest and good people I ever met. The day was amusing and what little I talked about cantr didn't spark any need to check it. Apparently the emotion is evolving in carelessness, id est negative growth. Let's see what work brings us this week.

Day 3 of journal. Monday April 14th
Dang, the normal 7:30 start at work was hard today. Obviously the weekend was regularly busy but somehow I didn't sleep enough Sunday on Monday. Luckily the beginning of the week is busy and before I knew it I was looking at the small pointer of the clock passing the 5... Time to go home, been a long day. Home, dinner, relaxing and a cup of coffee with some sitcoms... Then off to training and late in the evening a sense of obligation got me to spend several minutes in the green world. More the forum than the game though. What chars I have who draw me to the game I put inside buildings alone, if that's not a sign I wonder what is.

Day 4 of journal. Tuesday April 15th
The most common 7:30 was easier but still hard. I always have trouble sleeping after training but today it wasn't that hard... Showering at 40 Celsius might have helped though. The day brought me more boring tasks but still occupying ones. Where cantr used to be a nice change from the workplace it felt more like an annoying distraction when I had it open today though. After 3 hours I decided to cut it out and focus on other things, which wasn't hard. The evening brought me a sport-tournament which was fun, cause I was enlisted along with my dad so we were in the same team Little cantr again.

Day 5 of journal. Wednesday April 16th
Maybe 5 minutes of time spent on cantr. The sense of it being a pushy annoyance grows by the minute. Several attempts have been made by now to stop this feeling from taking away the fun I occasionally still get from the game. Minutes per day brings me no fun. Hours per day bring me annoyance. A balance in between brings me either one of the two as well. I am almost beginning to believe it is time for me to stop the game for the second time... This cry for attention is justified, or so I believe... My chars seem to be enjoyed by many but to what extent should I care for that?

[freiana]

I'll be VERY sad if you quit... But it's a game, and if there's no fun in it there's no use in playing it. I can only keep my fingers crossed and hope that you find some fun in it again before you hit the X-button.

[Addicted]

I scheduled a meet with Vega

*clears her throat* You met Vega!

[Henkie]

Both, yes.

[Vega]

Yeeeees!!!

And I met Bmot too!

[Henkie]

Hehe, hey Bmot... I get the 4 smileys

Booyaa.

[Vega]

That's because I'm on the phone and it's hard. If not, you both would had thousands... Millions!!
You can't imagine how much I thank you those days...

[Addicted]

Awesome!

[Mitch79]

Well, after events yesterday things have drastically changed for my favorite character. This means that you might see less and less activity from me as my interest continues to drop as it has over the last few months. I know my characters have been quiet, and I am trying but lately it's hard to continue playing for any length of time. This life change for my favorite one will have an effect as well, and it may very well kill her. We will see how things go.

[Xander]

I'm losing interest myself, and I'm sort of thinking of pressing that X. I have a few characters I want to keep for a while longer, though, and whilst I've not really been playing much lately I'm sure they'll wake up more soon.

It's typical of me to get bored with Cantr and leave for a few years, before coming back - I think this is the third or fourth time since 2003.

[ManyVoices]

Mitch, you're making me nervous!

[Henkie]

Quitting is part of the play like arrival is part of a journey. Focuss on the journey while it lasts, but don't be afraid to go home sometime.

[Henkie]

2 days ago, late in the evening for us, good friend of mine had decided it was time, and together we helped eachother to halt our gameplay. I know for a fact we both have brought a lot to the game, but by now the equasion had turned into a one way street. Whn you get that feeling it's time to stop, and so we had to. And so we did.

I'll post my chars next sunday, with a short story about their lives and such. That will probably be the last post I make, I'll log in to check PM's every now and then.

[NancyLee]

Well, after events yesterday things have drastically changed for my favorite character. This means that you might see less and less activity from me as my interest continues to drop as it has over the last few months. I know my characters have been quiet, and I am trying but lately it's hard to continue playing for any length of time. This life change for my favorite one will have an effect as well, and it may very well kill her. We will see how things go.

The only thing that will be bitting his ass in hell is that he's not there to look after her now. He would have give his life to protect her, maybe in a way he did since he was sure he'd end by hurting that wonderful woman someday, somehow.
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As I've already told you, it's been not only a pleasure but a privilege and you're a joy to rp with. At this moment you and Alladinsane are the only "survivors" of all my all time favourite role players and it brings some mixed feelings, being the predominant one gratefulness for all the hours of fun and all you've taught me. This goes too for Henkie, Indigo and Naranjita. I've been so fortunate for having the delight of intertwine histories with you all and even more for getting to know you: you are just amazing.


In other order of things, and despite I've always been reluctant to ooc contact, some of you have managed to dynamite the rampart and I'm parting with more emotional baggage than I had when I first arrived here ¿three? years ago. Besides of a whole lot of good memories and hilarious moments, I part now with a paralell world with an incredible person, a very good friend and future neighbour/kidnaper -whichever happens first-, a mirror soul and a muse. Darn, I'm fortunate!

And...this was me reneging my "I'm not going to send a goodbye post", so I better leave it here. Thanks for all and I hope you re-find the thrill of cantr for the ones who still are trying.