Aurora wrote:It's been a long time since I posted, and today seems like the day to offer some thoughts out into the world so they stop buzzing in my head.
It has been a really stressful year so far but it seems like it's just getting more and more stressful. I am currently 6 months pregnant with our first baby and doing my best to keep it safe. My husband has been so helpful and his family have been a godsend but some work prospects for him have me extremely stressed, and that in turn stresses me out because I am scared of hurting our baby with the anxiety. And there's very few people I -can- talk to about this because I don't want to be a burden to anyone and at the same time I am scared that my feelings might be dismissed, as it has happened with my family in the past. My husband has so much in his mind already and I know he also worries about me but I don't want to worry him more. So I'm writing this in here in hopes that it will bring me a bit of relief. God knows I'm trying my best to relax and have that 'whatever happens, happens' mentality, but I'm struggling with the stress and anxiety.
I can only offer what I find to be an effective stress reliever for me. It's that old one of imagining a safe, serene, peaceful place.
For me it is the night sky. When I was on vacation and staying in a small town on the island of Kauai in Hawaii, I would wake up almost every night in the middle of the night and go out on the 2nd story deck and lay down in a lounge chair and look at the night sky. There were almost no lights on in the town and the sky was immense with billions of stars. For some reason, remembering that night sky is very calming for me.
I hope you have a serene place or memory where you can go when you need to. Blessings on you, your husband and soon to be newborn.