Thought or Rant of the day!!!

[Arenti]

Yes, I am very demanding and highly irritable, but that's no secret.

I never noticed that.

[SekoETC]

I was supposed to return a book to the library since it's due today, but as I went there and rummaged through my backpack, I realized I didn't actually have it. So now I have to renew it online even though I've read it ages ago, just because I'm too lazy to go again because it would take over an hour. On top of all, I missed the bus and had to wait for the next one, so I ended up walking a few blocks back to the previous bus stop.

[Vega]

On top of all, I missed the bus and had to wait for the next one

Missing the bus it's the hell...

[phoenixannwn]

My bipolar has taken a serious dip into a low space, and the worst thing about these things is that I never see them coming. I just get more mean, darker, and more self destructive, and I don't realize until about halfway through.
Moreover, I've definitely noticed this has seeped into my characters.
I'll not give details, but two of them are very unhappy campers at the moment and another two might not make it till their next birthday.
So if you play with these characters, please have patience.
It really doesn't help that on top of the regular bad-bipolar stuff, my whole body hurts and I'm worried about randomly spazzing out in pain.
So you might also want to ignore any depressing/rambling posts that I have made in the past couple of days or will make in the next couple of days.
It's kinda of hard to think right now.

[Rebma]

My bipolar has taken a serious dip into a low space, and the worst thing about these things is that I never see them coming. I just get more mean, darker, and more self destructive, and I don't realize until about halfway through.
Moreover, I've definitely noticed this has seeped into my characters.
I'll not give details, but two of them are very unhappy campers at the moment and another two might not make it till their next birthday.
So if you play with these characters, please have patience.
It really doesn't help that on top of the regular bad-bipolar stuff, my whole body hurts and I'm worried about randomly spazzing out in pain.
So you might also want to ignore any depressing/rambling posts that I have made in the past couple of days or will make in the next couple of days.
It's kinda of hard to think right now.

Like saying you hate pie? Ignored.

[phoenixannwn]

Like saying you hate pie? Ignored.

Rebma=<333

[Misato]

I'm so so so sorry for not being awake lately...I know my chars have been sleepy for the last few weeks... I just haven't had any inspiration to play anything lately. I'm going through some kinds phase, I guess (and I don't like it, but it is what it is)...I don't plan on losing any of my chars, but they might be sleepy until I get over this funk. It seems like all I'm doing lately is laying in bed staring at the tv (which is usally turned off).

On another note...still haven't had surgery yet...have an appointment with a surgeon tomorrow (where I'll probably be told what to expect before/during/after surgery and sent home because it would just be my luck). I have virtually no appetite lately, and have to force myself to eat even a little, and I'm so freakin hungry! My stomach usually only hurts for about an hour just after I wake up, but I feel bloated and uncomfortable all day...like a stuffed turkey...and not in that 'omg, I ate so much I'm pleasantly fat' way...

I've been seriously considering eating lots of everything I'm not suppose to just to induce an attack so they have to fix me! But I won't...however strong the temptation may be... >.>

[Chroma Key]

My bipolar has taken a serious dip into a low space, and the worst thing about these things is that I never see them coming. I just get more mean, darker, and more self destructive, and I don't realize until about halfway through.
Moreover, I've definitely noticed this has seeped into my characters.
I'll not give details, but two of them are very unhappy campers at the moment and another two might not make it till their next birthday.

It's kinda of hard to think right now.

I know EXACTLY how you feel. II'm trying hard to offer a word or two of comfort, but failing. All I can say is, you know that's not gonna last forever. Try to go through it as best as you can, one day at a time (it feels more like one breath at a time, I know), and take it easy (No, it's not easy for me to say). We, like a lot of people (and I am taking the liberty to say "we" but I know it is rightly used) are here/there for you. Good luck and feel better soon. Lots of hugs.

[SekoETC]

I woke up at 6 am to play Cantr. It felt great, and I felt more awake than usual mornings when I might take half an hour just struggling to stay awake and get dressed.

[Snickie]

My morning routine usually goes something like this:
6:07:58 wake up
6:08:03 my mom yells at me for the first time to get out of bed
6:08:42 my mom yells again for me to get up
6:09:57 my dad shuffles down the hall and annoys
6:10:30 I start getting out of bed and whine to my dad while dragging myself down the hall
Breakfast usually lasts seven to ten minutes, then either I take two minutes to grab Snick and then go to bed or just go back to bed and Cantr until 6:45, then I change and yank a brush through my hair and usually get out the door by 6:52.

I shower in the evenings, before anyone asks.

Note: times aren't utterly accurate but estimated to give you all a sense of how quickly the first part happens. I am not allowed to be a non-morning person in my house, which is hard when you're a non-morning person like me.

[Vega]

6 am it's not morning, it's a punishment...
I used to wake up at 7:30 when I was at high school and it was like a nightmare...

[Doug R.]

My alarm goes off at 5:15am. My daughter goes off around 3:30am on good days, or midnight AND 3:30am on not so good days.

[Arenti]

I might be less active the coming time. As my father needs major heart surgery.

[gejyspa]

I wish him a full and speedy recover, Arenti.

My alarm goes off at 5:20, for reasons known only to my wife. (Optional) snuggling while listening to the local news on TV, showering and getting dressed, and am downstairs by 6:10 at the latest. I'll usually check my characters (or sometimes watch a little TV), then am out the door at 6:30.

[Snickie]

@Arenti: I'll pray for him. I hope everything goes well.

@Vega: Agreed. My mom gets up even earlier, and she's a morning person. She'll get up at 5:30 on the weekends without an alarm (though on weekends she at least has the sense to let me sleep in until 9).


If I had to get up at zero hour I think I'd just stay up the entire time and not go to sleep. I like staying up late and sleeping in, and I'd rather pull an all-nighter than wake up early. One time pre-Cantr-life I stayed up in my room until 4:30 just drawing, and my mom got up and was pissed because I still up when she got up. I went to sleep and slept until 8:30, and they regulated my bedtime for several months after that, no staying up past midnight, et cetera.