Thought or Rant of the day!!!

[RedQueen.exe]

I hate everything!
A mod can delete this...

Too late, quoted for all eternity!

Also, I'm always irritated with everyone. I looked it up to see if that's a symptom of some disorder, but found zilch except a comment forum full of people saying "OMG, I know exactly what you're talking about!". Except for one goober that apparently doesn't, because their comment was something along the lines of "Maybe if you show people a little kindness, you'll find they're nice to you in return". Problem is, nice people irritate the crap out of me more than anyone else 95% of the time!!

[Joshuamonkey]

Moral of the story: Never, ever, ever use Google Translator

That encourages me to use Google Translator (which I already use a lot..).

I still like snow and ice, even though I've had some bad experiences with it, such as driving an scraping snow and ice off of my car over and over (my car stays outside). I've also had good experiences with snow and ice, such as snow fort making, snow tunnels, snow mountains, ice skating, sledding, ice hockey, purposely sliding on ice when running, and snow ball fighting.
As for the cold, sometimes I'm criticized about not wearing many layers, because most of the time I'm outside I'm running, and that heats me up more than enough. In the past I've run (for 30 to 45 minutes) in bitter cold and snow multiple times in just a t-shirt, and yes that's not a good idea, but I've also run in the summer; even here, that can get very hot.

[RedQueen.exe]

I used to get pissed at these late night con calls where I'd get stuck on as standby support even though I'm not actively doing anything. I just realized though it's a great opportunity to stay up until the wee hours playing video games guilt-free (and possibly have an excuse to show up late or leave early the next day too!)

[phoenixannwn]

Mountains.

[raspberrytea]

Plagued by constant sleepiness that probably won't let up for a long time yet, I've decided to let a few of my characters go. One has already starved himself (though that was actually partially by accident, oops), another is wasting away in a foreign land, and the last will probably die at the hands of animals anyway.

Then I'll be down to 6 characters. Hopefully cutting down on how many characters I have will help me be more active.

[Doug R.]

I admit it - I'm primarily a simmer. I like to build. I think my characters are complex and deep, but, like me, they tend to not speak unless spoken to. It's crippling. I look at players like Mojo, who are builders and have characters that stimulate the world around them, and I realize that I can never be that - it's fundamentally not who I am as a person, and as such it's not in my characters. I try. I try hard, but I just can't. I feel like a one-legged dancer. *sighs*

[SumBum]

I think I'm somewhat in the same boat, Doug. I have a hard time expressing some things that would give others clues about their personality/past without feeling like an attention whore. Many of my chars get brushed off as sleepers even though they work nonstop. I just don't like emoting every few days *quietly works* especially with one who doesn't want attention.

[Armulus Satchula]

The cost of using an SMS gateway is a lot and Google doesn't support more then 300 messages a day. :/

[phoenixannwn]

whaaat.

[Comy]

like me, they tend to not speak unless spoken to. It's crippling. I look at players like Mojo, who are builders and have characters that stimulate the world around them, and I realize that I can never be that - it's fundamentally not who I am as a person, and as such it's not in my characters. I try. I try hard, but I just can't.

I have a hard time expressing some things that would give others clues about their personality/past without feeling like an attention whore.

These are my biggest problems in Cantr, especially the bolded bit. It's almost impossible to be subtle because just about every character is hawk-eyed and notices every little thing. In some part, it probably comes from being starved for interaction, but it would be nice to be able to emote something that doesn't have people jumping to question it. Sometimes I don't want a response, but people want to respond to every emote, so I can't avoid feeling attention whore-y.

[Chroma Key]

This week has been so busy and tiring. Hectic really. Since last Friday, P and I had to take a taxi to the other side of the town to my friend's very early in the morning (It's half term so no school). After dropping her off, I had to take a taxi back to work. Had to wake up even earlier to get ready. Then the work was very busy. So many deadlines, now most of it out of the way but it has all taken its toll. I'm not even going to go into how messy the house has been with our bathroom being decorated. As I type, we don't even have a sink. It will be finished tomorrow, hopefully. Then I'm going to take the longest bath of my life.

I am fed up with it all at the moment, so I plan to have an extremely lazy weekend. My mind and body both need recovery, mind more than body. My thoughts are racing far too fast for my own good. Can't. Even. Think. Properly. I need a break!

[phoenixannwn]

like me, they tend to not speak unless spoken to. It's crippling. I look at players like Mojo, who are builders and have characters that stimulate the world around them, and I realize that I can never be that - it's fundamentally not who I am as a person, and as such it's not in my characters. I try. I try hard, but I just can't.

I have a hard time expressing some things that would give others clues about their personality/past without feeling like an attention whore.

These are my biggest problems in Cantr, especially the bolded bit. It's almost impossible to be subtle because just about every character is hawk-eyed and notices every little thing. In some part, it probably comes from being starved for interaction, but it would be nice to be able to emote something that doesn't have people jumping to question it. Sometimes I don't want a response, but people want to respond to every emote, so I can't avoid feeling attention whore-y.

I've found myself thinking more than once that I wish I could play something useful (like a mumble of a secret or something) that people didn't ALWAYS hear or react to.
At the same time, I'm glad they do. I dunno.

[Chroma Key]

All I wanted was a little break, and this is what I got instead:
1) Bumped into someone's car with my own while parking. That is after I told someone that I managed to drive where I went without incident. This was on the way back. Sigh... Well, I'm insured and all so it's fine, but unpleasant (not to mention a blow to my ego, or so I thought, before v happened, now all I can think of is "eff the car")

2) Came home, got away without much bollocking re the car... Then I rang my auntie about my mum, who told me that my mum was going to have a very risky operation and it wasn't certain whether she would make it or not. My heart just sank. I don't know when she's going to have the op yet. Apparently she needs to have an intensive course of treatment for a week, then they'll do it asap. I need to arrange tickets to fly home before the op. I have barely accrued a week's holiday but that's not a problem, as I should be able to go on compassionate leave... P's got school so I can't take her with me, that'll mean her dad will have to take time off, too. As long as I know mum's gonna be okay, I really don't care. Shame I am so far away, and it will take me about a day to get there...

*sigh* Prayers/good wishes/positive thoughts are hugely appreciated at the moment. *goes to head for a swift breakdown(

[mikki]

I am sorry that your luck seems to be going downhill right now, Chroma, but you and your family are in my prayers! You know you are very much loved by all your cantr friends. Please keep us updated on how things are going.

[Doug R.]

Consider prayers sent.