Postby west » Sat May 27, 2006 8:10 am
I was raised very conservatively by people who were nonetheless sincere, loving and understanding Christians. They frequently had as many doctrinal issues with the "church" as I do (and did), but it never really wavered their beliefs, perhaps because they both grew up in pretty bad homes in which their parents also happened to be atheist; certainly there's something to be said for being raised in an environment where your parents believe in your worth as a created being and want to nurture you in a safe and loving environment. And no, I don't believe you need to be religious to do that.
As for where I am now, I suppose I'm agnostic. The Christian subculture that I've always been aware of and never really part of just totally turns me off, and it's gotten so that I can't sit through a church service or a Bible study or anything anymore without getting profoundly uncomfortable.
I can't rule out the existence of a God, and throughout my life I've had experiences that seemed to affirm or reaffirm the idea that there was a divine being out there with perfect love who wants His creatures to be happy and fulfilled (which are not the same thing). But currently I'm conflicted as to whether or not such a being exists. Sometimes I feel he could, and sometimes I'm not so sure.
What I am sure about, though, is that whether or not there is a God or a higher power or anything else, people do not have free reign to do what they want.
Our responsibility is first to our fellow humans, to do what we can to alleviate suffering, show love, and bring hope to the world, as Jesus and others have taught.
Similarly, we should show proper appreciation and care for the world we've come to find ourselves in a position of power over: to keep the environment clean and healthy not just for ourselves but for our children and all the living things that we share it with.
And finally we should strive for inner peace and coming to terms with the world around us, understanding ourselves and our part in the larger whole. And understanding that, as one of the apostles wrote, "'Everything is permissable' but not everything is beneficial." Even if there is no higher law or moral code that we are required to follow we should take care of each other, our environment and ourselves. The Golden Rule is the only true religion: Do unto others as you would have done unto you." Call it Karma, call it Ethics, call it Morality, call it what you will. That is our responsibility as human beings to each other and to the world we live in.
That is what I believe. The rest is (to me) ephemeral and unimportant. You can fight over which way is the way to heaven, and how you should live to get there and who gets to go and who doesn't. But heaven's another story, and nobody can say what's on the other side of death. The life we're living now is the only one we can be absolutely certain of, so what we do while we're here to make the world better is what we should worry about. The rest is details.
I'm not dead; I'm dormant.