Postby formerly known as hf » Mon Jan 05, 2009 12:48 pm
People. Just. People.
All of us. Mostly it's disgust. We're an incredibly repulsive species. Our worst attributes come to the fore when we're acting in complex social systems, and as groups of various sizes. But, honestly, even as individuals most of us are vile, obnoxious, horrid, petty creatures.
Which, in itself, is fine. We are no more than, and there is nothing special which sets us apart from any other biological entity on this planet. We can't be expected to live up to nonsensical pedastalling notions of 'humanity', and that's not the reason for the disgust.
I am disgusted by our immense arrogance - arrogance that we are, somehow, special, and arrogance that we, somehow, can know the world better than any other creature, and that, somewhow, this makes our judgements more valid. This is what 'creeps me out' - this is the fear as the kernel of that disgust.
More often than not, that disgust is largely fear. We are the scariest thing we know. We have developed into the most dangerous creatures. Combined with how viscious and self-serving we are, as biologocial creatures, which translates into arrogance and self-righteousness. That is the scariest, creepiest, thing I know.
Also, I used to stay in an old farmhouse in France on some holidays as a kid. The bed I had was right next to some beams supporting the roof (I was on the top floor). Those beams has holes in them, where knots of wood had fallen out. In those holes, spiders used to stay. All you would see of them was 8, large, black furry legs, spread in a circle coming out of this hole. The spider deep inside. This was about 30cm from my pillow. This I did not like. So, one night, I found some masking tape. I knowcked on the wood to scare the spider inside the hole and taped it up.
All I could hear for the rest of the night was the sound of the spider's legs sticking to the masking tape and pulling off again. A slow scrrhtch scrrhtch. All night. I didn't sleep much.
Whoever you vote for.
The government wins.